Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Can do it

Well another of my “C” words – CAN ! Yes, I can do this !!!! Yesterday I went for my walk at lunch time – the weather was just beautiful and I have to say that as I was walking along the Broadwater (I had my phone but have no idea how to get the photos off of it) I wondered why I hadn’t got off my butt before to do this. Never mind, I will be doing it a lot more frequently from now on (just not today or tomorrow as I have other appointments to get to).

Not only did I go walking yesterday but I drank some water – not 2L but 1L which is better than nothing and given that I probably haven’t had any water for about 2-3 months, I was pleased that I made a start with it again.

My work pants were feeling a lot more comfortable today which is good – I said to a friend the other day, the one thing I don’t want to do is get those bigger size pants out the bottom of the spare cupboard – thank goodness I have been spared that.

On Monday I bought myself a jacket / coat from Target – they had their 25% discount plus I got my staff discount so landed up paying $51 odd for it. I bought a lovely black corduroy jacket from Crazy Clark’s ($10) the first year we were here and it has done really well – it still looks good but it is far to big for me now. I wanted to post a picture but can’t find it on their website – yes I could get someone to take a photo and post that, but that isn’t going to happen given how un-photogenic I am !!!! So, for now all I can say is that it is black, hip length and has buttons up the front – and it is really cozy !!!!!!

My food yesterday was good – I did have a WW dessert (apple and cinnamon) while watching CSI but I figure that so long as I count it in my points for the day, it is OK. I haven’t given myself any goals to work to for sugar points – will just try to keep to the 14 sugar points for the week and see how I go. I think that it should only take me a couple of weeks of tracking everything I put into my mouth, getting back into the exercise and making the right food choices to lose these extra kilos that have crept on – then it will be back to the whole maintenance merry-go-round again !!!

Take care everyone and have a great day !

TFTD : You don’t get to change how you are going to die, or when. You can only decide how you are going to live now.

TIAGF : Sunny days

Tuesday, May 30, 2006


“C” was the letter that M gave me and while I haven’t been able to sit down and actually come up with 10 words to describe me, my word today is CONTROL ! And not even with a capital C – the whole word is in capitals because that is what I had yesterday. I took back the control that food has over me and put myself in control of what was going into my mouth. I took it one meal at a time and I DID IT !

I didn’t manage to get in any exercise but for me, exercising the restraint over what I put in my mouth was good enough (for day 1 anyway !) I got home from work this morning and had a WW fruit bar and a bite of something that Al was eating – purely because I didn’t want to eat a whole one myself but the taste was good enough for me. I went to sleep feeling so pleased with myself – I was happy, I was back in control and I knew that I could wake up this morning and love myself for the choices I made yesterday. I didn’t wake up hating myself because I blew another day – mind you, I didn’t look at myself in the mirror either because I am not that happy with myself yet, but I will get there. The scales showed me a lovely figure this morning and I am using that to keep me motivated today.

I have brought in my clothes to go walking at lunch time – this is something that I have often thought about doing but have never actually done anything about. There is one lady who mentioned us walking together at lunch time and I said that was a great idea but we just haven’t been able to co-ordinate taking lunch together and not having errands to run at lunch time. Last night at work I wondered why I felt I couldn’t walk by myself – no reason except that I hadn’t thought of it, so I packed a bag when I got home this morning to make sure that there was no excuses like “I didn’t have time”, “I forgot” etc and it is sitting here, behind my chair waiting for me to take it out at lunch time and get walking. Plus I have pilates tonight so that will be a little more exercise for the day – dinner is left overs so that will be an easy one before I shower and snuggle up on the bean bag to watch CSI.

I have some special dates coming up in the next couple of months and I really would like to be back down to where I was a few months ago (weightwise) – I know that I can do this and I need to stay focused on what I want to achieve.

Have a great day everyone and take care – thanks again to you all for your support – I know that this is what this forum is about but it is always so good to hear that I am not alone in this – there are others who have been through the same and completely understand what I am going through.

TFTD : Our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

TIAGF : Taking back control of what I put in my mouth

Monday, May 29, 2006

Thank you to everyone

Well it is the start of a new week today and while I am not overly confident of just how ‘back on track’ I am, I am definitely more back on track than I have been for quite a while. Thank you to everyone for the hands stretched down to help me up, the kicks in the butt to get me moving and the general heave ho that you have sent me – they are all VERY much appreciated. While we all know that we have to be in the right head space to achieve what we want to, the helping hands along the way certainly do make it that much easier.

I haven’t actually got the whole day’s meals planned, I do know that what I have brought to work will be enough to get me through the day – I don’t NEED that muffin from the bakery down the road so I plan to stay away from there because when I walk past sometimes the smell is just to much for me and I land up walking in and buying something – not because I need it but just because I want it.

Al and I went for a good cycle on Saturday morning which was great – it has been a long time since I have done any exercise and it was good to get out there. We dropped the bikes off to get them serviced on the way home as we both felt that they were in need of a check-up so hopefully the cycle this Saturday will be better.

While I don’t know if I can post everyday, I need to get back to being accountable for what I am doing (or not doing) so I am going to try to make it on here more frequently than I have been lately – even if it is just to say “I had a good day yesterday” – which hopefully will be more often than the “Oh dear, stuffed up again” !!!!!

TFTD : It isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others – sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

TIAGF : Being back on track (sort of !!)

Thursday, May 25, 2006

BIG bugger !!

Well you can't say it wasn't a good ending to the game !!! The first half saw me heading off to work wondering what I was going to see when I got home at 1.15am. We got home and it was freezing cold and I flopped into the bean bag, pulled a blankey over my legs, pulled the hood of my jumper up over my head and stuffed my arms into the opposite sleeve to keep warm.

I moved closer and closer to the floor (if you can imagine that happening when sitting on a bean bag !) helping the boys along but in the end, it just wasn't enough - one bloody point !!!

I have to say that during the first half the Maroons really didn't look like they were even in the game and I was pleased to go to work only being 14 - 0 down - it could have been so much more !!

Nothing to do but wait for Game 2 in 2 weeks time.

Take care everyone and have a great week !

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Origin night !

Good luck to the Queensland players. Actually, I just hope that it is a good game no matter who wins (it would just be a lot better if we did !!!)
TFTD : To be a champion, you have to believe in yourself when nobody else will.
TIAGF : The opportunity to keep on trying no matter how many times I fall down

Monday, May 22, 2006

No comments

Well the small creep is turning into the big creep but unfortunately it hasn’t been enough to shock me into doing anything about it – yet !!! I am sure that the day is coming very, very soon but until then I will have to continue to do the best that I can in the head space that I am in.

We had a really strenuous day yesterday digging in the garden to run new drainage pipes as well as starting to move the 180m² of pavers that have to be moved – all good fun and as the three of us were so busy outside – food sort of fell by the wayside i.t.o. what would be good options to have. It really was a case of what could any of us be bothered to make or as was the case with dinner – what we could be bothered to buy !! Al had mentioned going out for dinner but by that time, we were all rather sore and totally exhausted and couldn’t be bothered – it was almost too much to get up and go out to pick up some take-away !!!!!

I have been having trouble for the past two weeks or so – when I go to leave a comment, it won’t accept it. Then I got clever and would ‘copy’ my comment after I had typed it and then keep on ‘pasting’ until it was accepted. But, after the 3rd or 4th time, I have been giving up because I have run out of time. So please know that I have been reading your blogs and don’t feel like I have abandoned you if there is no comment – I have been having quite a bit of trouble leaving comments.

I hope that you all have a fantastic week – there are some people out there who are doing amazing things – there are some of us who are battling along and hopefully we will be able to do amazing things in the near future.

TFTD : People of accomplishment rarely sit back and let things happen to them. They go out and happen to things.

TIAGF : A rest from working in the garden

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Today's thought

Success is to be measured, not so much by the position that one has reached in life, as by the obstacles which we have overcome while trying to succeed.

TIAGF : Getting e-mails from friends

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Today's thought

I have learnt that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you have had and what you have learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you have celebrated.

TIAGF : Not working tonight

Friday, May 12, 2006

Happy Birthday K !

I want to wish K a very Happy Birthday today - who could look at her now and believe that 14 years ago she was a little 3kg, 50cm bundle ??? While I have never (and still don't) give a rats about my age, this certainly makes me realise that I am not getting any younger !!!

Have a great weekend everyone and I will catch up with you all next week.

TFTD : The stongest people are not those who always win but those who stand back up when they fall

TIAGF : A happy and healthy family

Monday, May 08, 2006

Not much to say

As the title says, I don’t have much to say. Things are hectic in the M household – not that that is anything unusual for us, or for anyone else for that matter. Most people lead full and busy lives and it really boils down to what you want to compromise to achieve your goals. Right now I am not sure of what I want to achieve or what I want to compromise and so I am just going along – checking my weight daily and doing the best I can in the circumstances.

Having said this, it is really easier to talk about the changes I need to make rather than to actually make the changes and it becomes a bit like blogging – sometimes if we spent as much time doing / exercising as what we do blogging, we would all be a lot further on than where we are BUT the support that I get from this forum is certainly something that I couldn’t do without – hence the need to blog – but in limited quantities.

We had a great Sunday at Sea World yesterday – we haven’t been for about 5 ½ years and Al and I got free tickets through the union and got K’s ticket at a reduced price – all in all a great day looking at the new exhibitions. We were a little annoyed because the Corkscrew ride was closed for maintenance – luckily we hadn’t paid for the tickets otherwise we may have had to ask for a refund !!!!

On a more serious note, I just want to say how shocked I was to hear of Sophie Delezio’s accident on Friday night – my heart just went out to her and her family – how can something so dreadful happen for a second time to someone so young. My thoughts go to her and her family.

TFTD : Life is like a taxi ride – the meter just keeps ticking no matter whether you are moving or standing still.

TIAGF : A 5 day week to get 5 days work done

Friday, May 05, 2006

Today's thought

Friendship is like a star. You don't see its light in the brightness of prosperity, but in the darkness of adversity.

Thank you to all the wonderful friends I have made through this forum - you are all such special people who have enriched my life in so many different ways and there are many stars which have shone for me during some troubling times - thank you !

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Every woman should have one

This was sent to me by a very dear friend and I couldn't not post it !

While I have nothing to say on anything else (because things are all pear shaped at the moment) - I wanted to share this with you all and maybe put a smile on someone else's face.

Have a great day everyone and take care !

PS - have just realised that what we really need is a mirror which makes everyone else see us this way !!!

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Today's thought

When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the one which has opened for us.