My "C" words - finally !!!

I don’t know how long ago I got my letter from M. I haven’t done anything about them for a few reasons - I forgot, I couldn’t find the time, I couldn’t think of any and then I realised that unless I made the time I was NEVER going to get them done - and here they are !!

Chocolate - I know that this may not be the most appropriate word for a weight-loss / maintenance blog but it is something that I LOVE so much I had to use it first up. I can eat chocolate at any time of the day or night - I know people who say “Oh no, I can’t have any chocolate, it isn’t after lunch time.” I have never been able to understand this - I can eat chocolate at 6am, 10am, 12 noon, 2om, 6pm, 11pm, 3am - I really can eat it 24 hours a day. I have learnt to only eat ‘good’ chocolate - I would rather spend more on a good quality chocolate than buy some cheap chocolate which tastes awful. The more smooth the chocolate is and the longer it takes to dissolve in my mouth - the better it is.

Challenge - this is a word which, when mentioned in the same sentence as “This job is” - is enough to whet my appetite for the position the person is talking about. I love challenges and I love the feeling that comes with meeting those challenges. I love a challenging job and I love the challenge of setting myself goals to achieve - like the C2S - sometimes I don’t give myself a lot of time to achieve them, but I like the fact that I have a goal to work towards and giving it my all.

Casual - this is me - casual as casual can be. My ideal job would be one where I could go to work in jeans !! My home is very casual - we love to entertain casually with BBQ’s and being outside. While I enjoy the formal sit down dinner parties occasionally, I do prefer the outdoor, casual way of life.

Compliments - I love it when people compliment me on what I have achieved. I am getting a lot better at accepting compliments rather than just brushing comments off as nothing. I think too often I forget how far I have come and when someone comments on it, it is good to remember what I have achieved and thank them for acknowledging my accomplishment.

Committed - when I look back to when I started this journey (for the last time), I realised that the difference this time is that I was totally committed to making this the last time I had to lose those kilos. I have been committed to maintaining my weight and, while I have not maintained at my lowest weight, I have maintained at a weight which allows me to still wear my size 10 jeans. Something I would never have thought possible 18 months ago given how many times I have got to goal, only to find that I put on all the weight I lost plus more.

Cookies (biscuits) / cakes - these along with chocolate are my down fall. I would rather eat a packet of biscuits than a good healthy meal. In fact, I have eaten a packet of biscuits as my meal (on more than one occasion) ! I know that this is sad, but then anyone with a weight problem will be able to understand how it can happen and what it feels like.

Chatterbox - I love to talk. Some people may find this a rather strange word to describe me because it is only true with people whom I know and am comfortable with. I am actually quite shy until I get to know someone but once I know you, make sure you can put your hand up to interrupt otherwise you won’t get a word in edgeways !!!!

Courage - I never used to think of myself as courageous but after having walked up mountains even though I am terrified of heights, killed large spiders even though I am terrified of spiders and flown in planes even though I always wonder if the plane will crash - I figure I can consider myself courageous. What I hadn’t thought was courageous was starting a blog until I realised just how much of myself I put into my blog. It takes courage to admit that I am a secret eater, that I keep stuffing up but that I keep on trying, that I never used to like what I looked like but that I now love my new body - while it isn’t perfect, it is right for me. Yes, it could be better but at what cost to some other part of my life and so I have learnt to love what I have.

Curvaceous - I think that would be a good word to describe my body - it is not the sylph like figure which I would like but that is because I am not 100% committed to weight-loss right now - and I can live with that. I would love to have the perky breasts that I used to have but, unless we win the Lotto and I can have a breast reduction, I am stuck with what I have and will have to rely on underwear to minimise them as much as possible.

Create - while I am not very creative in terms of making something out of not much - I do love doing things like calligraphy, cross-stitch, crocheting, making cards (those were the ‘c’ words I could come up with) as well as knitting, embroidery and patch working / quilting. I wish I had more time to do the things which I enjoy.

What a great exercise this has been for me - thanks M ! I was suprised at the number of C words I did come up with and then I had to narrow them down to only 10 !!!!!