Monday, October 24, 2005

No news is good news

Well that is the stand that I am taking !!! The scan went OK on Thursday – the lady who did it said I was her best patient all morning but considering that I was probably less than half the age of some of the people who I saw coming out of there, I am not surprised I was the best – I was probably the only one who could keep still enough to get the scan done the first time around !!!! I phoned the dr this morning and spoke to the receptionist who said that the results had come back on Friday but that he hadn’t asked for her to contact me for a follow up visit so am presuming that all is OK with them – the problem with that being OK is that we still don’t know the reason for the headaches. Last night was the first time I have been headache free since I woke up last Sunday which was great but unfortunately I woke up with a stiff shoulder and a headache this morning. While it isn’t that bad, it is still there which is rather annoying. Thank you again for your messages and e-mails – it is so good to have that support and it is so appreciated.
I have stayed the same on my scales this week (not that that seems to count for anything see my entry from last week) but I will be going to WW to see what their scales say this week. I have still been averaging between 4-8 Nurofen Plus per day so have no idea what that will do to my weight.
I have decided that I need to stop obsessing about what I weigh. I have never been a competitive person – I think I am too lazy to be competitive. I have never tried to compete with others about who could get to goal first or lose the most each week – I have been quite happy just going along doing my own thing at my own pace (not as quickly as I would have liked but, more often than not, at least moving in the right direction). Since getting to goal, I have seen others get to goal and then continue to lose and I suddenly realised that I wanted to lose more but have, to a certain extent lost the motivation (or is that determination as per
M’s post ?) to be really vigilant about what I am doing.
Last week wasn’t a good week for me i.t.o. exercise or even food to some extent – I wasn’t up to any exercise and really just wanted to eat what I wanted and not what I should have been eating. We did go for 2 cycles yesterday which was good but probably too little too late to have any effect on this weeks weigh in.
Over the past couple of weeks I have had a few people tell me I am too skinny – while I am (according to my scales) 21kgs less than what I was, I am by no means skinny and feel that I could still afford to lose at least another 5kgs without making myself look sick. Al has concerns about this and Kaitlin isn’t too happy either – should I be setting what I want to weigh by how they feel or should I be saying “While I understand this doesn’t make you happy, I am doing it anyway ?” It isn’t in my nature to do something that I know is going to hurt someone else but I don’t know where to draw the line between what they want for me and what I want for me.
We had a great weekend – I went for my birthday massage on Saturday and it was with a little Chinese lady who had the strongest fingers I have ever come across – she couldn’t speak much English apart from saying “Velly tight, velly tight. Ohhhhh velly sore, velly sore” – which had me chuckling to myself at times because she didn’t need to tell me how tight or sore it was, I could feel everything !!!!! While it wasn’t a relaxing massage it certainly was very good and I think I might try to get back to her sometime in the future.
We had friends over for a BBQ on Saturday night and had a great time with them. I did a Fruity Coleslaw out one of the WW cookbooks and it was very nice. I had some for dinner last night – definitely not something you should have as leftovers – it was much nicer on the night. K helped me make it and was turning her nose up at it much better but after everyone had gone and we were tidying up she said “Mom, that coleslaw was really nice and much better than I thought it would be. Can we make it again sometime ?” So that was good !
Take care everyone and have a great week !

TFTD : Reality isn’t the way you wish things to be, nor the way they appear to be, but the way they actually are.

TIAGF : A lovely weekend with family and friends


Blogger Kate said...

Sounds like a lovely weekend. I really hope those headaches take a hike for good! I've heard of people seeing chiropractors for things like that, and having good results, but no personal experience.

1:54 PM  
Blogger Leighanne said...

Glad to hear the headache has eased!
I belive the goal weight you choose should be what you feel comfortable:)

2:28 PM  
Blogger Slim Suzy said...

Glad the scan was OK, but I'm sorry your headache has lasted so long! It must have driven you nuts. There's nothing worse than going to bed with a headache and waking the next morning and it is still there. Hope it soon goes completely forever!
You will be the one who knows when you are happy with your weight. You should do whatever is right for you. Take care xx

4:25 PM  
Blogger Kt said...

good news re the scan but sucks u stilll aren't 100%. I think your weight is your personal choice, I think 5kg is fine. If you wanted to get back to your wedding weight, then i can understand that they worry but 5kg is totally safe!

6:58 PM  
Blogger M said...

Linda. I have just had a look at a copy of the Slimming magazine and drawn a line across at 65kgs. I then drew a line at 167cms. Where they crossed is exactly in the middle of the Healthy Weight Range for your height. The lowest point for your height is 58kgs.

If Al and Kaitlin are concerned, it is because they love you and have only had a short time to get used to the more enerjetic thinner you. A visit to a Dr with them would ease their concerns that you are too light for your height.

I think that you can afford to relax a little whilst at goal, but keeping an eye on things is not obsessing.

I hope you have a wonderful day. Take care of yourself and I hope that the headaches go away soon. :)

7:38 PM  
Blogger CaramelKitKat said...

So true, weight is just a number...let us know how that decision to not obsess goes - it's hard! Do you have an item of clothing that you can use as a guide instead?

Lurve a good massage, glad you lapped it up!

8:52 AM  
Blogger Emily said...

Buggar to see the headaches are still troubling you. Hope all comes right soon.

We are the exact same height and within a couple of hundred grams of the same weight. I am happy with my current weight, and I have also been told I'll be 'too skinny' if I lose any more, but like you, I can still see pokey bits that I wouldn't mind improving. Its all a matter of preference / personal choice, but as M said - you are healthy and thats all that matters!

12:39 PM  

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