Saturday, October 08, 2005

Another great day !

I had a great day today - woke up this morning and striped the beds and doona covers and put them in the washing machine. Then got on my bike and went for an 11km cycle in 34 mins averaging 19kph - have to be happy with that because when Al and I were averaging about 150kms per week on the bikes we used to cycle about 20-22kph. Got home and hung the washing out before showering and going for our muffins. Unfortunately, the savoury ones were still being cooked so I landed up having a sweet one (my usual 97% fat free) for 3 sugar points. Then we went to Coles to do some shopping for dinner tonight as we had friends coming over and then came home.
I had a strange conversation with K this morning when we were at Muffin Break - I asked her how she would feel if I lost another 10kgs - she was horrified and said that would mean that I would be only a few kilos heavier than her. I asked her why that would be a problem and she didn’t really know but she was quite adamant that I had lost enough weight and that I would be too thin if I lost another 10kgs. I have always thought that she must have been embarrassed to have me at school when I was 20kgs over weight and that she would be happier if I was thinner - obviously I was really wrong on that point. I was chatting to my Mom earlier today and telling her about what K had said and she said that I must be close to what I weighed when I got married. I had to laugh at that and put her right on that point - I weighed 20kilos less than I weigh now when I got married !!!!!!!! Which really means that, at my heaviest (apart from when I was pregnant) - I was weighing 40kilos more than I did when I got married - what a frightening thought !!!!!!! On Thursday night at work, I picked up a carton weighing 15kgs - put another 5kg carton on top of that and battled to pick it up - then I could understand why I never felt like I had the energy to do anything - just having to move myself around was hard enough. It was certainly a good exercise for me and one that I should probably do every so often just to remind myself of how much extra I was having to carry around - 24/7 !!!!!
I was talking to Al earlier this evening before he left the hotel to catch his plane and I said that we hadn’t been into Target today which was good because it meant that we hadn’t bought any more clothes !!! He just laughed and said that he wouldn’t have minded if we had bought clothes if we needed them - I think that I probably have all the clothes that I need right now but it is so lovely being things off the rack I think I have turned into a woman who likes shopping now !!!! Life in the Morris family will never be the same !!!!
We came home, did some more washing, went into the lounge room, put the radio on and did some exercises on the fit ball and the ab exercises from M. We then spent a relaxing afternoon doing not much apart from some chores around the house before getting dinner started. While I was preparing dinner I realised that we hadn’t eaten lunch - which, while not good, meant that I had more points to spend on dinner tonight !!! Not that I needed them because it was a point friendly chicken dish with rice and I didn’t have any dessert. I deliberately didn’t have any nibbles as I knew that there would be some left over and I knew that I still had to get through the rest of the night by myself.
BUT, I have since had 4 Mars Lite Bars and stuck the wrappers in my Diet Pepsi can so that nobody could find the wrappers in the bin !!!! Thank goodness Al is only an hour away from boarding his flight - I don’t know how much more secret eating I can get away with before it starts to show in my clothes and on the scales.
I know that tomorrow is going to be an exciting day for us - up early and drive to the airport - then home and off to some friends in the afternoon for a late lunch early dinner. It is going to be so cool to see him again - I can’t wait. I know I am going to cry because I always do - it doesn’t matter if I am saying hullo or goodbye !!!! There were times during this 6 weeks that I wondered if it would ever end - there were times when I wondered if I would be able to get through it without him - there were times when I wondered why on earth we were doing this and then I remembered - for the opportunities it will give him in the future and the fact that he is doing what he is qualified to do and for the money !!! While I can’t say that I have enjoyed him not being here - it has shown me that I am stronger than I thought I was and that, while it has been difficult, some times more so than others, I have got through. There is that saying “A woman is like a tea bag - you never know her strength until you drop her in hot water” - while we haven’t really had any major crises to deal with since Al has been away - sometimes it has felt like just getting through each day was a major achievement for me. Not only have I survived the 6 weeks without him but I managed to get to goal as well - I was sorry that he wasn’t here to share the night with me when it happened because he has been such a big part of the journey and he has been so supportive of me the whole way, but I could tell that he was just as excited about it in Taiwan as Kaitlin and I were about it on the Gold Coast.
This has turned into a rather long winded post - but at least it has kept me out of the kitchen - right now, a very good thing !!!!
Take care everyone, be good and keep focussed on your goals. You are all such special people and I can only say how much you have, each in your own way, inspired me to continue on this journey and achieve the goals I set for myself.

TFTD : You don’t stop laughing because you grow old, you grow old because you stop laughing.

TIAGF : The laughter shared with friends tonight

12 Comments:

Blogger Paulene's Journal Journey said...

You are a super strong 'teabag' girl *wink*
I'm so thrilled for you knowing today is the day your Al comes home :)
ENJOY YOUR FAMILY TIME!!!!
I bet Al is blown away by how great you are looking.
I bet his return will spell an end to your secret emotional eating and you'll be back to your old confident self. *hugs*

Cheers P

7:09 AM  
Blogger Mary said...

Good going on the bike! I love cycling and LOL, well a woman's gotta shop I reckon to show off her sexy new figure :-) YAY for Al coming home. I hope you guys have a fabulous reunion!!

8:20 AM  
Blogger Mary said...

I was thinking about losing another 10kg too. Not that I should unless I want to be model thin but the thought did cross my mind. Why? I don't know. I am happy the way I am now though. I guess we always wonder what can or could be different.

8:22 AM  
Blogger Briony said...

Have a fantastic day today Linda, yay for NO MORE SLEEPS!!
I think your secret eating will stop now too. Have a fabulous week (I know you will!).
Bri

9:30 AM  
Blogger Kt said...

Well done on getting out for a cycle :) I reckon K must be real proud of her Mum :)
Have a fabulous day with Al!

11:20 AM  
Blogger jak said...

Yay! No more sleeps!! WOOHOO!!!! How exciting that Al is home today!! :)

Good going on that bike Linda! Awesome stuff.

2:55 PM  
Blogger kathrynoh said...

Hope you enjoyed your special day (though I don't think they are any doubts about that...lol).

And it's no surprise that K doesn't want you close to her weight - bet she's worried you'd be borrowing her clothes!

7:30 PM  
Blogger Slim Suzy said...

Hope you had a lovely reunion with Al and a nice dinner with friends. Well done on the bike riding and exercises too!

8:22 AM  
Blogger Emily said...

I am the official welcome committee - both for Al AND the return of Linda's controlled eating :-)

10:22 AM  
Blogger michelle said...

I am also on emilys committee. It is great for you to have Al back. Your love for him shows through your blog. You lucky girl. Have a wonderful time together and not too many tears or the tea bag will become quite soggy. Lots of laughter and lots of hugs. He will be blown away by your appearance.

12:39 PM  
Blogger Jodie said...

Well the day finally came and I hope it was wonderful as I imagined it to be. Glad to have him home and I bet you are too LOL! NO MORE SECRET EATING!! Life goes back to normal he, he, he!! XX

1:45 PM  
Blogger Jules said...

What a great novel/entry!! LOL. I hope you enjoyed your bike and I was just saying to Blair a similar thing last night. If I carried around two 3kg bags of potatoes for a whole day I would be buggered, yet I did it on a daily basis for 5 years.

6:31 PM  

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