Because Enough is Enough

Forgive me fellow dieters for I have been a naughty girl - it has been far too long since I last posted, tracked, exercised or went to WW.

But, as the drink driving ad says "Because enough is enough" and I have to do something about turning this horrible upward trend around. I have had to go up two pants sizes and I just cannot continue in this vein. My 500g packet of liquorice and a packet of biscuits every second day are not conducive to any sort of maintenance programme ! I hate what I am doing to myself but I have not been able to do anything about it - whether it was because I didn't want to or I couldn't or I just didn't like myself enough to want to have to bother, I don't know - but what I do know is that it has to stop - right here and right now. That is not to say that I won't have cr*ppy days. I'm sure that I will have those along the way, just as I am sure that there will be days when I feel like I can take on the world and other days when I feel that the whole world has it in for me BUT I do want to change this around and I commit to doing the best that I can.

It has been far to long between walks - my chiro spoke sternly to me of the need for me to be walking. I don't think I have walked since I did the City 2 Surf. I am trying not to make a whole range of changes at once as I don't want to be over-whelmed by what I have to do and, as there are quite a few other things happening in my life at the moment, I don't want to make the challenge too hard so that I feel a failure when I don't make it.

I do feel like I need to be accountable to someone which is why I am going to start blogging again. I have found out how to blog via e-mail which will make it easier for me to post but it doesn't help me in terms of reading other blogs. I do try to read some on the weekend but our computer is really not playing the game and so I land up being very frustrated at the end of an hour on the computer hence I don't read as many or as often as I would like. I know that I am a lot more careful about what I do and what I eat when I know that I am going to come on here and confess to my wrong-doings !!!!! I have realised that just stopping the junk food isn't enough, I have to start counting points and getting that exercise happening. I may take it one step at a time - get the exercise happening and then re-introduce the point counting at a later stage. As you may recall, Al has to have a rather big operation on his leg - that is happening in a couple of weeks time so I don't want to set myself goals which I know I won't be able to keep in a few weeks time - for a few weeks duration. So if I can start with the walking, I will be happy.

A friend has offered to walk with me a few afternoons after work so as soon as her husband goes back to work, I will see what I can do to meet up with her. I know that if I have to meet someone to walk with, I am more inclined to go walking than if it is just by myself and for no reason other than I need to exercise. I like to have a purpose to my exercise and, unfortunately, getting fit and losing weight isn't really enough of a purpose to motivate me.

Take care and have a great week everyone !!

TFTD : A friend can tell you thing you don't want to tell yourself.

TIAGF : My friends who have cared about me enough to keep in contact while I have been out of contact - thank you all - your support is truly appreciated.