Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Dreadful day

Having a shocking day today - got to work this morning to find that our bank account was overdrawn because the bank didn't transfer funds from our investment account as requested - luckily it wasn't my fault but I still had an "Oh shit" moment when the lady who reconciles the account told me we were overdrawn ! Then I was looking for a journal and knocked a full glass of water on my desk - so there was a mess everywhere. Went to Kim's funeral at 11am - this may sound a little strange, but it was a lovely service - not that I have many to compare it too. But three of his nephews read out poems and e-mails / letters and one of his brothers-in-law did the eulogy which was very good. I don't know how anyone can talk at a funeral.
Now I just want to stuff my face with any sweet thing I can find - I have had some fruit and nuts but I don't know how long I can last. Part of me knows that eating isn't going to make me feel any better - the short term satisfaction is long outweighed by the long term disappointment. So far I have resisted but I don't know if I can manage to keep this up for much longer. I am feeling really drained today and just want to eat, eat, eat - and not carrot sticks either !!!! My eyes are burning and my heart is heavy. Sorry to be moaning today and not having anything inspiring for anyone except hang in there and take care ! I will try to take my own advice today and be good.

14 Comments:

Blogger Kate said...

Oh you are so inspiring - seriously!! Do your best to stay on track but if you can't manage it you'll be fine too - you'll just have to get back on track later. Some funerals can be lovely - I know what you mean.

7:17 PM  
Blogger Kate said...

Hmm... i just re-read that comment - it sounds like I was being sarcastic, lol. I wasn't!!

7:18 PM  
Blogger Kt said...

I'm glad to hear your friends funerl had a nice service - i have been lucky enough to have never been to a funeral.
Hang in there - if u go over your pts, its not a big deal!

8:07 PM  
Blogger M said...

Linda. It is a really hard time after a funeral. Make the best choices that you can today and don't allow room for regrets later. You are strong but even the strong can have their down moments.

The heavy heart will go away in a little while. Till then, take care **HUGS**

8:52 PM  
Blogger Emily said...

M said exactly what I was going to say - any day with a funeral in it is not a nice day. Be good to yourself :-)

9:03 PM  
Blogger Slim Suzy said...

Hope you feel better today.

8:04 AM  
Anonymous Anne said...

It's been such a hard day for you today. Funerals are never easy. No wonder you feel drained. Also you are inspring as you have realised what's up and why you are feeling like you are. Take care and hope things look up for you!

8:55 AM  
Anonymous Paulene said...

Aww babe... :(
Big hugs to you!

Cheers P

3:30 PM  
Blogger Mary said...

Oh hon, I am so sorry to read this. I hope you are feeling better today. Just try be the best you can be for yourself and you'll get through this {{{HUGS}}}.

3:44 PM  
Blogger Jodie said...

I'm thinking of you {{HUGS}} Keep positive!! XX

7:41 PM  
Blogger A Girl Running said...

I hope your feeling better now Linda. A lovely service is so nice for family and friends to remember

3:42 PM  
Blogger Kate said...

I hope that everything is going ok with you, and that you are feeling a bit better. xxx

4:51 PM  
Blogger michelle said...

Linda. thanks for the invitation to meet when I was in QLD. Unfortunately I was in Brisbane and then Maroochydore. Sorry about your funeral. Its OK to be sad and some moments in life need you to let yourself feel. Hoep you have a better week.

4:02 PM  
Blogger M said...

Hi Linda. Just checking in to see that you are OK. Miss your posts but understand when you are so busy. Talk soon. xx

9:57 AM  

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